People say that over time these things will fade, drift away somewhere unknown to me. I fear the day when I hear this song and don't think of you, when walking through bookstores your face doesn't pop into my head.
It comforting to think of you , because you are a constant. To me it seems like I always just know what you'll be doing. You never seem to veer. I can fall back to you any time and know that despite the space between us you will have enjoyed things the same way I have and shared in similar experiences as me .
I will always regret certain things about us , the way you and I both handled certain things. I pushed you away because i was afraid of losing you and you pushed too hard because you were afraid of losing me.
Someday I will meet somewhere who I don't compare to you , someone who makes me smile the way you did. Someone who I feel comfortable in silence with. He will except me the way you did . I will stop remembering you and start making new memories with him. But until than I'll remember you when I smell rain and smile because somewhere I know you are smiling at the same smell. the smell of the world being cleansed.